The Punishment Needs to Fit the Crime (Tonks)

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"Oh Goddess" moaned Fay as she flipped through the paperwork she had to do. She was not organized and this small crammed office was not helping her. She was in fact lucky that she had not become claustrophobic. She had been working for the last ten hours straight without a break her hands were shaky and jittery she hadn't eaten anything. She looked unstable and she could not even get up without collapsing back down again. She had passed out twice before already and by this time she felt that she would die soon. But work had to be done even if her life depended on it and she kept on going.

As she kept busying herself and doing her work she closed her eyes tight her eyes were killing her and her vision was getting blurry, she already had vision issues and this was not helping her. She felt around with her hands to figure out where she was going only to trip over her wand on the floor. She made a loud CRASH sound as she stood up or at least tried to finally she couldn't and in frustrations she burst into tears. She lost her papers, her work was still not done and she couldn't even walk across her small office properly.

Finally, even knowing she would have to punish herself later for it, she let herself pass out she needed just like five minutes of rest, she prayed and hoped she would wake up in five minutes and with that came darkness. The door to her office remained opened at all times, everything in the place was protected from unwarranted folks but people were allowed to come in. As she lay there passed out she did not hear that someone else was not that far away.

[tonks]

Nymphadora was walking around the Ministry. Well, not exactly walking around for she was on her way someone. She had been asked to a parchment to someone. A Miss Fay Lewis. Honestly what was she? Tonks was an Auror not a owl. She didn't even know this woman. She had heard a little about her but nothing really. This would be the first time they would have met. Then again, its not like Tonks is exactly going to make introductions, she was just dropping off something after all. She was looking at the doors and was looking for the office. She believed she was getting closer.

There it was. It was already open so she must be in. Great. Tonks would just drop in and be gone in no time. Tonks was walking up to the door and was going to knock to make her prescence known. She stopped though when she looked inside. The office was a disater. What made it worse was that she found, who she believed to be Miss Lewis, on the ground and possibily passed out. What on earth happened here? First Tonks took out her wand. "Tergeo Office." she said and things began returning to their proper place. Hopefully Fay wouldn't mind Tonks doing that. Then she walked over to Fay and tried helping her sit up. "Miss Lewis? Miss Lewis are you all right?" The woman looked rather pale to Tonks. She looked extremely tired and weak. She looked like she hadn't slept or eaten in quite a while. Why was that?

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The voice was what woke up the timid Hufflepuff Graduate. She blinked a couple times before she could take in Tonks with her purple hair and the now cleared office. Closing her eyes to keep them from hurting her more and giving her a massive headache, the young woman reached behind her and found the back of a chair, using it to help herself up she leaned against it, she would never sit without being told to do so. “Merry Meet” she said pleasantly although her voice was weak and she still looked pale. She offered her hand for Tonks to shake and said. “I'm sorry you had to bring the papers to me, I assure you it wasn't my idea to have them delivered...I would've gone down myself as I normally do but...case in point I'm very grateful, I know you must as busy or more busier than I am” she had an accent that was English but not, New York but not somewhere in the middle.

She took a breath, it was an effort to do it, she felt so weak still, that probably was probably because she had not eaten anything in the last ten hours, she had drank one cup of water to be exact and that just was not enough for anyone. “Would you like to sit down? She asked...and oh, pardon me for my office and the state of disaster it was in when you first got here, I again would have cleaned it but...I was trying to do too much and that's not good on anyone...my body just couldn't hold it anymore I guess” She hoped whoever this woman was, would join her she hated to be alone. Something also told her that it was a good idea for them to stay together right now why was another story she couldn't tell them. She tried to relax and just stand there leaning against the chair she did all she could to not collapse again which took effort.

[tonks]

Nymphadora helped this woman up. She looked very weak. Tonks wasn't rude and shook her hand. "It's not a problem. I guess we all get busier than we'd like to. You should probably sit down for a minute. Wouldn't want to go fainting again now would you." Tonks looked the woman over. She was pale, she was obviously weak. She also looked like she hadn't eaten anything in quite a while.

Nymphadora took out her wand. Then with a wave a sandwich had appeared on the table. "Here. If you don't mind me saying you look like you haven't eaten in a while. Which is obviously not good." She said pushing the plate with the sandwich closer to Fay. "No one should do anything on an empty stomach. Plus you look exhausted. If you don't mind me asking what are you doing still working when it is kind of obvious that you're pushing yourself way to far." Tonks wasn't exactly known for her subtly. She normally tried to get straight to the point and was blunt about things, especially if she didn't understand them. It wasn't really her business though was it. Its not like she was Fay's mother or anything. Once again Tonks was sticking her nose into the business of others where it didn't belong. "I'm sorry. I am being way to nosy."

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"I'd be happy to give you a response...your right I haven't eaten in ten hours" with the suggestion that she should eat, she smiled and took a bite of the sandwich. "I just find working helpful, of course Professor Dumbledore does not think that this is a good idea but, I can do both my work and helping him" she meant to drop the hint that she was part of the Order now just in case the woman in front of her knew anything about that. "Keeping myself busy keeps out memories of my past, things I don't want to remember"

She found herself trying not to cry she had no idea why she was so teary eyed these days. She pulled her hair which now looked blond but only due to the light and pulled it back. "Pushing myself helps...as it always had"

Before she could say anything more she gasped as she saw a vision. It was not very clear but she saw a battle, the future...no not quite this was the past, she was younger...the muggle streets, she couldn't help it anymore this time she did cry snapping out of her vision she was still in tears. "Oh Goddess, I never wanted to remember..." she choked.

She shook her head. "I failed...I failed Dumbledore, I failed my sister, I failed my girlfriend and I failed my best friend" She looked at Tonks. "I failed everyone, someone seriously should punish me, severely...I'm a murderer, I betrayed people and I'd done so much wrong things"

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Nymphadora didn't know what to make of this woman. She looked perfectly normal. Well besides the whole exhausted and weak look that she was sporting right now she looked perfectly normal. Tonks didn't understand why she was pushing herself so much. It did throw her off a bit when she mentioned Dumbledore. Then again she shouldn't be surprised. Perhaps this person believed Dumbledore's truth and all. For all Tonks knew she could be part of the Order but Tonks wouldn't say anything right now. "I think even Dumbledore would tell you that you are pushing yourself way to hard." she said. Tonks wasn't even going to ask her about the memories she was talking. She was sure that those were very personal and Tonks knew when to keep to herself.

"You can only push yourself so far though. And if you're not careful you may ended up pushing yourself over the edge. That's what my mom always tells me." she said smiling at the thought of her mom. Nymphadora may not approve of the namer her mother gave her but she still loves her with all her heart. Then she was pulled out of her thoughts by Fay's sudden action. What was going on? Tonks had to admit that it creeped her out a bit. "Miss Lewis are you alright?" Tonks wasn't expecting what Fay said next. Next thing she knew Fay was crying. Tonks didn't know exactly what to do. "Hey, calm down." She said softly. "No one's going to punish you. Why would they do that?"

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Fay took a couple big gulps of breaths before she finally returned to her normal self. Still looking pale she said. "i don't know if you'll want to know but, I'll tell you why someone should punish me..." she sighed. "Years ago, back when I was in Hogwarts, I graduated from Hufflepuff, I had a twin, well I expect I still do she isn't dead yet, I also had a girlfriend and a guy best friend...the four of us made well...a little crew of our own sort of, we always hung out, always were seen together, now the two friends we had were older than us by one year, every last one of us was in Hufflepuff except for my sister who got into Ravenclaw just because she was smarter than loyal or that was the conclusion we drew"

She paused took another big gulp of breath and said. "Things went fine until our sixth year, my sixth year...we decided that we would go out into the Hogsmead area and just chill and relax, before we knew it we were in the London streets, don't ask how I would've been so careless but long story short we met three death eaters, my sister and I survived, the others did not...I'd never managed to forgive myself for it, my sister blamed me, I blamed me...and it's what I saw...apparently I can have visions of the past, it wasn't clear I assure you but I knew the feeling right away, being helpless and all not...i should be punished because it was my idea to go to Hogsmead, my idea to just walk and talk and it was my idea to break the rules see, it wasn't a Hogsmead weekend and my girlfriend and best friend paid for my stupidity...with their life"

[tonks]

Tonks had not been expecting a story time but she didn't say anything. She was a good listen when people just need someone to listen for a while. She listened to Faith's entire story. So Faith was also a Hufflepuff. What a coincidence. So was Tonks. By the end Tonks couldn't feel anything but saddness for the woman. That must have been rough on her, especially at sixteen. Tonks didn't really know what to say. She was good a listening, sometimes, but talking was a whole different scenario. She wasn't exactly the best person for talking.

Tonks just tried to say something that may be helpful to Faith. "Hey, its not your fault. If anyone the Death Eaters are truly the ones to blame. Attacking innocent kids. You can't blame yourself for wanting a little fun. I know I was exactly the most well behaved kid at Hogwarts. I was a Hufflepuff as well and I was always getting reminded of my behavior by Professor Sprout. What happened to your friends was a terrible thing but it wasn't your fault. You shouldn't get punished for anything if you ask me. There's no point to it."

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She shook her head. "I should, trust me I should've been brought in front of the ministry of magic, Dumbledore refused to do such a thing, that next morning after that whole incident Madam Hooch had to chase me on a broomstick, I was about to fly off and hand myself off to the ministry for their death that's murder on two accounts, reckless endangerment and all not" she said shakily. "Unfortunately things didn't go my way, Madam Hooch and professor Sprout grabbed me off the air before I left school grounds and I was escorted into the green houses, I love plants it keeps me calm and all, and basically they had to tell me to stay there, I can't disobey a direct order so I never tried again...but the guilt never went away..." she sighed as she flicked her own wand making two butterbeers appear. Sliding one of the cups to Tonks she said. "Here, I know you weren't expecting a story, thanks for listening..." she didn't know what else to say since she didn't know the woman very well but she did feel better talking about it, keeping it inside for years had not done her any good.

Trying to get out of the depressing topic she said. "I'd love to chat with you more if you're not busy, I'm talkative but only because I have a lot on my mind, things I hadn't talked about for years...I left school for New York and stayed there for years before coming back here at Dumbledore's request to join him to fight the Dark Lord"

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She tried turning yourself in? Wow. "You didn't murder anyone. The Death Eaters are the ones that killed them not you. You shouldn't be so hard on yourself for that. You are not to blame, just as I'm sure Dumbledore's told you before." She wasn't surprised by Dumbledore's action, she was a bit more surprised by Faith's action, especially about wanting to turn herself into the Ministry. That was just nonsense.

She drank the butterbeer greatfully. "I would love to stay and chat but unfortunately I have to get going. I did enjoy our chat and I'm glad you're doing better. Just try not to push yourself to hard anytime soon. And try to get some rest. I'll see you around." she said with a smile as her hair started changing pink. She made the glass disappear and gave Faith one last smile before taking off.